Lesson 13 - Self, Central Source of All
Awareness travels into the wonderful strata of thought, where thought
actually exists in all of its refined states. First in this strata of
thought is an area where ideas are only in a partial, overall,
conceptual stage. Deeper into this strata, they, as concepts, become
stronger and stronger until finally they almost take physical form.
Finally, they do take physical form. But you are the pure individual
awareness, the ball of seeing light that is seeing all of this occur
within these strata of mind, and not identifying too closely with it.
The quest is to keep traveling through the mind to the ultimate goal,
merging with Siva. When you are conscious that you are awareness, you
are a free awareness, a liberated soul. You can go anyplace in the mind
that you wish.
The mission is, don't go anyplace. Turn awareness back in on itself and
simply be aware that you are aware. Try to penetrate the core of
existence. Become conscious of energy within the physical body and the
inner bodies, flowing out through the nerve system and drawing forth
energy from the central source of the universe itself. Now, try to
throw awareness into this central source of energy and dive deeper and
deeper in. Each time you become aware of something in the energy realm,
be aware of being aware. Finally, you go beyond light. Finally, you go
into the core of existence itself, the Self God, beyond the stillness of
the inner areas of mind. That is the mission and that is what humanity
is seeking--total Self God Realization.
Needless to say, the Self does not mean the realization of your
personality. Some people think that this is what Self Realization means.
"I want Self Realization," they say, thinking all the time it means, "I
want to realize that I am an individual and not dependent upon my
parents. I want Self Realization." Other people feel it means "I want to
realize my artistic abilities and be able to create." It does not mean
that at all. All this is of external consciousness, the intellectual
area of the mind. It is a lesser form of self realization. Self
Realization is finding That which is beyond even superconsciousness
itself, beyond the mind--timeless, causeless, spaceless.
After Self Realization, awareness has a new home. It does not relate to
the external mind anymore in the same way. It relates to the Self God,
Parashiva, as home base and flows out into the various layers of the
mind, and in again. Before Self Realization, awareness was in the
external mind trying to penetrate the inner depths. Then it would return
to the external mind and again try to penetrate the within through the
processes of meditation. After Self Realization, the whole process of
the flow of awareness is reversed.